My Old Friend

"Some people go to priests, some to poetry,

I to my friends"

Virginia Woolf

I caught up with an old friend today. I have known him since I was 5 years old, (that's 16years) and it made me think. 

We don't see the people we care about enough. For example, I haven't seen Jonathan in over a month, I find it very weird calling him this I never have as long as I have known him. Even though we went to different secondary schools, he went to a erm more private school than I did, we still stayed in contact, different universities and barely seeing each other over the three years we were there has not made it awkward when we see each other, I suppose this is a true sign of friendship, nor did our friendship end when me and a friend pushed him into a lake out of a tree. But I suppose this is true friendship.

The same can be said for my friend Laura, we lived opposite each other for 10 year walked to school and caught the bus together everyday yet now we barely see each other once a month even though I moved we still live in the same village.

But we try to make time for coffee once every couple of weeks or so but its more and more difficult to do this now. Both working odd hours sometimes unsociable hours and having other commitments we barely have time to see each other yet when we do it was like it was only yesterday. This is the sign of true friendship. Someone that is there when you need them makes time and doesn't cancel last minute without a real reason (real reasons being death or severe illness) someone that doesn't matter when you last saw them but you never run out of things to say to each other.

On a different note, I got my bracelet fixed today :) I got it for my birthday this year and the little heart fell off the end, think I wore it too much, but it's fixed now and I love it :) it is so delicate and feminine not exactly my usual taste but so lovely.

My sister wrote this to me the other day:

 I love my sister so much don’t know what I would do without her we have ups and downs but we always work stuff out in the end.. Even though she was always right in the first place! She’s like my role model and I really do adore her! love you

Picture was way back when I had lovely bright red hair I do miss it but its too much hard work.

I don't know what to say. She steals my clothes, my make up and soon she will steal my shoes. She makes me laugh, yes sometimes it's more at her than with her, but I love her, we are totally different in many ways but I think that's why we get along so well. She is my beautiful little sister and I don't know what I would do without her :) 

Well its halloween soon and were having a little party/ get together next week and I've decided to go as Bellatrix LeStrange (she is one of the death eaters from Harry Potter, not many people know who she is) and I'm making the costume myself, it's not going well I can't sew if I'm honest I don't know what I was thinking saying I would make it.  I will post some photos and things when I have finished it :) I keep stabbing myself while trying to sew the lace arms and that annoys me so I give up. 

I finally bought a lovely new scarf to go with the hat and gloves my boyfriend bought me last year. The scarf was only from primark but it is so warm and comfy. Rory also bought me a new Nintendo DS so I wouldn't be bored while he is still at Uni. It's the little things I appreciate most. The picture is a little bit blurry but I was dying (playing spore) and I tend to move the DS in the direction I want to go even though I know that doesn't help. 
I have missed Rory this week even more than normal i think but I am seeing him Friday so It's not too bad and the DS has really given me something to do while I have been sat on my own. It's a year and a half tomorrow that we have been together officially shame we can't have a nice tea or something.

Insecurities

To every girl that ever reads this,

You are one of natures greatest accomplishments. You posses the energy needed to restore and heal the world. If you were ever made to feel stupid or immature as you sing your heart out or lip sync to those songs you just shouldn't like or even know if you were ever judged for wearing your skirt a little too short or dying your hair a ridiculous colour. This is why we feel insecure in who we are. 

Pressure from teachers, parents, boyfriends, girlfriends, TV, films and magazines to be the perfect person, the perfect female, is why girls feel insecure. 

Its ok to be smart and pretty. It's ok to be bigger than a size 10. The need to starve ourselves to match the fashion setters, the magazines and the popular girls is why we are girls are insecure. 

It's ok to work hard for what you want not what your parents want you to be. It's ok to make and achieve our own goals. Not work towards what people want us to be. 

Because it's better isn't it to be well formed. Better to be slim be slight. those devastating eyes, 

so perfect vulnerable and young (Mrs Quasimodo C.A.Duffy)

The reason we are insecure is nothing to do with our selves and who we are it is our experiences. Its the external pressure why we feel insecure how can we ever be happy with who we are if it fails to make everyone around us happy? Before we can stop being insecure we need to learn to be happy with ourselves, to do things that please us regardless of how it is perceived by others.

My Boy

So this boy is my whole world. He is my best friend and my boyfriend and I can't wait to start my life with him. He was one of my closest friends before we got together and for a while we spent nearly every day together. He was there and now I can't imagine my life without him. Not only is he really chuffing cute but he is very thoughtful and caring always know exactly what to say :) RTB

My first blog

So this is my first blog and I dont know how to start so I will go straight into it. I am really starting to enjoy the time of year where you get to wear your hat and your gloves especially since mine are so cute (thank you Rory). I absolutely adore pandas they are possibly the cutest animal, possibly even cuter by how endangered they are.

 Now getting to that time of year but I need a new scarf to go with it. I never used to like to cold weather but its growing on me. Getting to wear big snuggly jumpers have hot chocolates and get to be really close in bed (well when I get to see Rory anyway).